life
my mind is all over the place. literally. i gotta quit the caffeine. i cant have one single thought that even makes sense but it needs to settle down lol. i need to figure out my life and step one…is to worry about myself and not others. as much as i want to be that lending ear…hey, it would be nice to be asked how i am doing even though i hate answering cuz its always “oh, you know same ol same ol’. i dont mind listening to people but iv become stuck in this spot where now i just wanna be sure the person is ok and everyday im just wondering about the person but then its like oh yeah, i have a life too. its not that interesting so im thinking thats why im in other peoples bubbles (friends, not talking about you..its the ‘others’)
its time now to grow my own wings and fly. theres so much i wanna and NEED to do. my health is number one. im feeling so off lately and i know why. i gotta work on that first and then comes everything else. i wanna move by myself because that will force me to grow, i want a dog (i love cats but truthfully, im a dog person), i want a new job where im appreciated…or where anyone is appreciated, and i just want true happiness. i feel like a rusty robot right now…going through motions.
“where is that psycho, overly crazed about cats, hardly makes sense, eats more than i do girl”. HERE I AM =D
having a bit of a break down but I’m taking it all in positivily. The more things go downhill, the more it pushes me. I think I need to move, get a new job, and turn life around drastically. I hate change but at the same time..if you don’t change,you’re always stuck.
Brian M Viveros (via Exclusive Preview: Obey Your Master: A Tribute to Metallica @ Exhibit A Gallery)
